17th July 2014
I am getting so pissed off today, alone again, I hate being alone, so much fucks with my head, I have increased my medication, with permission of course, I am so tired all day and can't sleep nights,
I have just written a letter to my care worker, now I find the keys missing to my filing cabinet, I have hurt my arm pulling the damn thing out, feel like smashing it to bits, why do I keep feeling so angry then after a few minutes I am jumping around, what's wrong with me? Am I finally ending up cracking? I've had one breakdown am I heading for another? I would like to know, I'm sweating like a pig and so thirsty all the time, I am giving up I've had enough of everything and everybody.
Maybe things will change ...